Author Archives: samlobos

About samlobos

I am an avid fan of creating narratives in my head about random experiences and quotes for future books I will probably not write. I harbor a 15 year old girl in my psyche and like to solve world issues when I'm half asleep.

Rising from the ashes

It’s been almost four years since my whole life burned to the ground

I can’t believe how much my life has changed since then

I celebrated my 37th birthday yesterday

And I felt so loved

I am still in awe of the fact that I have friends who genuinely care for me, without condition

I am amazed that I actually have a healthy relationship with my parents and siblings

I am still in disbelief that I have a fiancé who gains happiness by making me happy

Four years ago, I would have never believed this would be my future

And now it is my present

Still, I feel both joy and pain simultaneously

Having to give you up was the most painful thing I’ve ever done

It continues to hurt, to this day

It is a loss that I will never not feel

I love you so much and I hope you have moved on

I want you to be happy

I wish it with all of my heart

I have finally forgiven myself

I have learned to enjoy and accept the good that has been given to me

My life has been resurrected

From ash to a beautiful phoenix

Meaningful lives never come easily





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