Rising from the ashes

It’s been almost four years since my whole life burned to the ground

I can’t believe how much my life has changed since then

I celebrated my 37th birthday yesterday

And I felt so loved

I am still in awe of the fact that I have friends who genuinely care for me, without condition

I am amazed that I actually have a healthy relationship with my parents and siblings

I am still in disbelief that I have a fiancé who gains happiness by making me happy

Four years ago, I would have never believed this would be my future

And now it is my present

Still, I feel both joy and pain simultaneously

Having to give you up was the most painful thing I’ve ever done

It continues to hurt, to this day

It is a loss that I will never not feel

I love you so much and I hope you have moved on

I want you to be happy

I wish it with all of my heart

I have finally forgiven myself

I have learned to enjoy and accept the good that has been given to me

My life has been resurrected

From ash to a beautiful phoenix

Meaningful lives never come easily