The woman 

I wanted to be that woman

The one that makes you believe in fairytales

The one that heals your past hurts

The one who’s different from all the others

I wanted to be her so badly

I wanted to reflect the same intensity of emotion back to you

I wanted you to feel secure in my love

But I am not that woman

I’m a woman who knows what a wonderful man you are

A woman who appreciates you to no end

One who challenges you

Your equal

But I’m also a woman who doesn’t desire you

Not the way you desire me

And not the way you deserve to be desired

Desire- what a fickle word

But I know I can’t live without it

Nor would I want to

If I could choose, I’d choose to desire you

But it is something that just is, with no rhyme or reason

I’m sorry

I do care for you, just not enough

Not enough to sustain a lifetime 

I know you will heal

You will move on and find the right one

I so wanted to be her

But my heart knows better

I hate myself for letting you go

But I want you to find her

The woman that I am not


About samlobos

I am an avid fan of creating narratives in my head about random experiences and quotes for future books I will probably not write. I harbor a 15 year old girl in my psyche and like to solve world issues when I'm half asleep. View all posts by samlobos

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