So close to the edge.
I look down.
I don’t know what to expect
On one hand, it’s an adventure
The destination seems so erotic, so pleasurable
The draw pulls me in
The sensation of being that close to danger, to the unknown, exhilarates me
Do I dare step off the ledge?
Am I okay with free falling and just enjoying the ride,
not knowing where I’ll land?
Am I willing to risk getting bruised, cut, or broken?
Can I handle it?
Do I really want to?
I’m usually the cautious girl
I don’t dive in unless I know what I’m getting myself into
And once I commit,
I’m used to guarding my heart so carefully
Don’t play with my emotions
And definitely don’t play with my heart
Can I go there with you without getting attached?
Can it be just fun?
I could try being that girl, but at what expense?
I know myself
My need to emotionally connect is strong
Is it stronger than my desire to experience you?
Will I let you push me over?
My curiosity drives me closer to the edge
Closer to giving into you
Closer to letting go
Closer to falling