It’s been almost four years since my whole life burned to the ground
I can’t believe how much my life has changed since then
I celebrated my 37th birthday yesterday
And I felt so loved
I am still in awe of the fact that I have friends who genuinely care for me, without condition
I am amazed that I actually have a healthy relationship with my parents and siblings
I am still in disbelief that I have a fiancé who gains happiness by making me happy
Four years ago, I would have never believed this would be my future
And now it is my present
Still, I feel both joy and pain simultaneously
Having to give you up was the most painful thing I’ve ever done
It continues to hurt, to this day
It is a loss that I will never not feel
I love you so much and I hope you have moved on
I want you to be happy
I wish it with all of my heart
I have finally forgiven myself
I have learned to enjoy and accept the good that has been given to me
My life has been resurrected
From ash to a beautiful phoenix
Meaningful lives never come easily
