I’m having a little boy!
It’s a bit weird to say that, even weirder to have seen his little arms and legs stretching out and moving in my womb in real time
I’m really going to have a baby
Today I received a package of onesies that my mom bought for me and it hit me how small he is going to be once he’s out in the world
And I felt suddenly protective of him
In all honesty, prior to that, I hadn’t been feeling particularly maternal
I’m still not a fan of being pregnant and, until now, I’ve mainly felt like I just have a beer belly without the beer
But I think it’s starting to sink in
Like, holy shit, I’m having a baby!
And he’s going to be small and cute and fragile and depend on me to protect and care for him
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by that and other times I’m excited by it
I feel both completely unprepared and moderately prepared and it just fluctuates by the minute
On the mental health front, I’m doing much, much better
I’m stable and acting and feeling like myself again
Pregnancy symptoms have become way more manageable, but definitely interesting
My feet and ankles swell so that sometimes I have cankles
I waddle instead of walk
My vanity has definitely taken a hit and I’ve just resigned myself to accepting that I’m the weirdly dressed pregnant woman who used to be attractive to others ( I was also a sometimes weirdly dressed non-pregnant woman, but at least I could dress up decent and pretend to be glamorous back then)
I get winded sometimes just walking across the room
Squatting and getting up are becoming a strategically planned event
I cannot sleep without my pregnancy pillow and even then, I wake up several times at night
My fingernails grow at super speed
I pee like 20 times a day
And I burp sooooo much because indigestion
Here are some photos for your amusement:
